W I L D I tell you.
but oh so blessed.
as I reflected on this past year, I can't stand but to come to my knees and thank God. there is so much good. so much blessing.
many changes took place, but the good kind. some I thought I would not be able to handle and some that I though, what was I, or we, thinking? but His grace is enough.
I have been feeling personally challenged in many areas of my life.
and like any other mom, I'm just trying to figure it all out.
I have reached a state of contentment and comfort that I thought I could really never reach, I'm just happy. Overly happy in my marriage. I'm happy with my kids development and improvement. I'm happy with our home. I'm happy with family. I'm happy at work. I'm just happy with things. and just when I thought I could relax and enjoy in my current state, God walked in.
for my whole life, I knew our family was different. my parents always opened our minds to greater things and didn't let us settle for less. they showed us that anything is possible and that nothing is out of our reach. and if it was, we just had to work hard, to get there.
now that I am older and can do whatever the heck I want, I still follow the same lifestyle that I was taught since birth. from the, "your not allowed to have sweets or cokes before noon, any day," to the "you never walk on tile with bare feet." just things that stick with you forever, ya know?
talking to Brandon one day on the way to get the kids from daycare, I told him about the challenges I was facing. (he's such a great listener, I've got such a great friend in him.) and he said he had been feeling the same things.
I feel like there is more to my life, our life. I am happy with my life, but I feel like I am meant for more. and its not just some little thought in my head. I've felt obligated to do more. not in a bad way, but in a way to strive. I feel like there is so much out there and so many opportunities that I am not utilizing and I take for granted everyday. I have so many talents but get bored of them so quickly that I don't give them chance.
I have began many things and not finished them, simply because I have lost interest. I guess because I know its not enough. Its not enough to just pass time.
Brandon and I dream a lot. and let me tell you, we dream big! we have thought up business plans, we have thought up building a home, we have thought up the future and taking care of our parents and our kids in a way that nothing would be out of reach to them. after all, that is the Kingdom right? leaving them in a state that they will, in great ways out do us and do the things we never could.
we have the degress, so what is stopping us? money? Brandon has found that. time? there is time. motivation? we have plenty. employees? that's why we're having kids. *haha. im just kidding, I just had to put that in there.
we are business minded people. so business it is. franchise? retail? dining & entertainment? marketing? who knows what He has in store for us. but I know its something H U G E!
BESIDES THAT..
the BLOG. I have decided to re-launch the blog. I had been keeping the blog more private to friends and family. but I feel challenged to take it farther. I really have enjoyed blogging and creating content for you all, but I feel like there is so much more that I am missing out on and want to do. I want to be more creative and more active with my blog. I'm thankful for the faithful readers I have, but want to reach out. we have been getting so many views in the past posts that my mind is blown away! you will see a bit of change of content as well topics and I hope you enjoy.
FILM. Brandon recently recovered my old files from my laptop and I couldn't be more thrilled. I got to relive through videos of Noahs's birth, his first haircut, his first word, concerts, etc. I was so happy to have those again and it made me realize how much I have not filmed in the past 2 years. these babies are growing fast and I want to hold the memories forever. so, I have decided to film more. of the kids, Brandon and myself, even just thoughts here and there. and.. maybe combine all videos in a months time and post it to the blog. I will let you know if that is something I decide to do.
I don't know what is to come. but I do know that its coming. so whatever it is, I am preparing.
I know that we need to be strong, and first of all, spiritually strong none the less.
so for now, we pray.
